Praise and Prayer

Hello Friends and Family
Today is my last day with Silas. I am asking for prayer this evening as we say "see you later." The organization is having all the children leave this evening to go back to the O even though the majority of the children are from the O down the street and it worked fine to get the children back last time and make it to the airport. So - I will not get to take Silas back to his O nor do I get the chance to visit where Titus was as I had planned. The organization that our adoption is facilitated through - not our adoption agency - seems to take one step forward in gaining trust with the parents and then promptly takes 2 steps back. It is frustrating to come all this way and not get to spend one of the nights with your child(ren) when you could. And for Silas and some others - their O is in Leogane which is over an hour away so I imagine they will be sleeping on the floor tonight at the O down the street which is not where he is used to. He is a flexible boy and I know he will be OK - so will I - I am relying on the strength of the Lord to get me through. Please also pray for the other parents here. It is so hard. Noel and I will really have to evaluate whether we will come back again on a parent trip. I am praying hard that we won't have to decide because it will be time to bring Silas home. I know our small group is meeting tonight - Noel could you please pray.
Silas and I have definitely reached a new place in our mother- son relationship in the last 24 hours. I think he and Noel got there last time we were here, but now it is my turn. When I evaluate the week - I think the first day he was glad to be held more and fed, but wasn't sure about me. The next couple days he was learning to trust me again, testing me a lot. But now - all you mothers know...the way he only wants me to comfort him, the way he hugs and pulls my face to his, the way he smiles at me, the way he giggles and wants to walk with me just to hear me cheer him on....I was prepared for how much I love him, but not how much he loves me.

Hope all is well with each of you. Thank you for caring for our family and for all of your prayers.
Love you all,
lori

Praise the Lord, O my soul. I will praise the Lord all my life. I will sing praise to my God as long as I live. Blessed is he whose hope is in the Lord his God, the maker of Heaven and earth, the sea and everything in them, the Lord, who remains faithful forever. He upholds the cause of the oppressed and gives food to the hungry. The Lord sets prisoners free and gives sight to the blind. He lifts up those who are bowed down. The Lord sustains the fatherless and the widow. The Lord reigns forever, for all generations. Praise the Lord. segments of Psalm 146